rock with me .

best friend .

2011-05-05T11:50:00.000-07:00

"cause 'best friends' isn't just a label , it's a promise ."

good mornight , lovely babies of the world .

it's 2.37am right nw . yes , i have school later in the morning at 9

&& yes , i'm still wide awake thanks to my ever so loyal friend , insomnia .

omfg , i fucking hate housekeeping . i suck at making beds , like seriously .

to think this module was where i made my first bed && cleaned up shit .

the first time i tell you . i was brought up a spoilt brat , so mind me .

bt i never thought it would be this hard or tiring .

i'm sooooooo sad :(

BAHH ! fuck it .

anyhoooo , i've been spending a whole lot of time with this bitch .

Khairunnisa Chow , i love her <3

in the past one week , i had my first karaoke && bowling session .

i don't knw about the karaoke session .

bt what i do knw is tt i is awesome at bowling ;D no kidding , seriously .

bt i really don't enjoy the body aches i gt after the session .

which reminds me , i haven't been doing any exercise or labour (namely housekeeping) since i graduated from secondary school which was like what ?

3 golden years ago ? :/ i shall declare myself severely unfit .

though the sad thing is , i'm underweight .

though it's good to knw tt i'm officially nt fat , boyf's been bugging me to put on some weight since .

nt so much tt i'd look like i have bicycle tyres on my body .

just enough so tt i don't look anorexic , or so he says .

i think i look just fine . nt fat , nt skinny ((:

what do you think ? heh .

i should really stop rambling here , especially when i doubt there's a single soul in this world who still visits blogger .

sad much ? okay , well . nt really .

thought of switching to tumblr bt i won't have time to upkeep it .

so i thought , just fuck it .

i shall just talk to myself on this awesome blog when god forbids i be so bored ((:

gotta go force myself to sleep nw .

may god bless you , whoever you are . xoxo .

Hospitality Operations .

2011-04-24T10:41:00.000-07:00

greetings , earthlings .

it's 1.37am right nw , i have school at 8am && i'm still wide awake , fml .

it's nt tt i hate school , it's just tt school's been rather draining on me recently .

like eff-ing seriously .

i mean hw fun cn my life get when school is pretty much a 9 to 5 affair almost everyday .

on the brightside , i have awesome classmates && my boyf in class to top it off .

tt's nt my entire class bt well , it's the people tt i normally hang out with in class .

housekeeping , principle of international commerce , events && catering management , hospitality sales && marketing .

this semester is really proving to me tt ite is no joke .

plus , i have to die2 go for sports && wellness else i can't graduate .

fml , fuck it real hard .

nt to forget , i still have service excellence && writing for business exams to sit for this semester .

hw awesome , right ? nyehnyeh !

btw , meet boollet <3 heehee !

okay , so her name's jiazhen . bt i love to call her boollet ((:

one last stick before i make yet another impossible attempt to sleep .

wish me luck .

may god bless you , xoxo .

random ramblings .

2011-03-29T11:11:00.000-07:00

greetings you beautiful earthlings .

the holidays have been rather boring actually .

it's as if i was transported back to secondary school .

y'knw , secondary school holidays .

all you'd want to do is lepak && pretty much waste your life .

okay , well . back then you didn't knw it was wasting your life , duhh .

anyways , talking about secondary school , i really miss ncc .

the trainings , the camps , the courses , the parades , the friends , all of it .

to think , back in the days i used to despise my ma'am for putting us through so much torture .

bt nw tt it's long gone , i realise hw much i treasure those times .

especially cadet life . sobsob !

school's starting soon && i really am nt looking forward to housekeeping .

nt tt i have a problem with cleaning someone else's mess ,

which is clearly part of the job . i just don't want to cut my fingernails :(

i love my long painted nails which changes colour every so often .

&& also , i hate trackpants .

or anything tt covers pretty much more than 3quaters of my legs , really .

right nw i'm alr complaining hw hott the school skirt is making me feel .

hott as in the weather hott .

nt the "hott && sexy" hott . anyways , imagine wearing trackpants . zomg :(

btw , you'd think after the transfer to cck campus ,

students were supposed to feel better about the school .

i don't knw about the rest . bt i honestly miss clementi campus .

nw i wish i went to school more often back when we were still in clementi :(

i sound like some kind of a spoilt brat complaining about everything under the sun .

wtf , i should stop rambling .

may god bless you , xoxo .

baby , i'm back . i think ?

2011-03-03T08:19:00.000-08:00

greetings , earthlings !

i don't knw when was the last time i updated this damn blog .

bt i suddenly had a strong urge to blog , so here i am ((:

thing is , i don't use tumblr or whatever they have nw .

i'm a little vintage . HAHAH . bear with me , aye ?

else , you're more than welcome to leave this webpage right nw . hee !~

psst ! i fucking love my boyfriend ((:

anyways , i knw i blogged about my joining ite .

&& hw i dreaded my choice cause i can't have much say in my daily attire .

guess what ? i never regretted my choice .

i love my ite life .

i've made some great friends ; lost some . it's been good here .

though i'm in the same class as my boyf nw , i miss my HA babies ((:

exams are around the corner && i'm debarred for 2 papers .

FML , right ? actually , no . i'm kind of glad i was debarred . heh .

i'm just nt ready for exams . like eff-ing seriously .

boyf seems ready though . for the first time ever . LOL .

OMG , i'm so draggy nw . i haven't been blogging for a really long time . apologies .

enough about ite life . back to my old life . wait , no . nt so old , just life before ite .

i really miss my tg brothers . everyone's gt their own life nw .

i won't elaborate more .

letting go is accepting , it's learning && experiencing .

to let go is to be thankful for the experiences tt have once made you cry , laugh , love && grow .

it's all about all you had && all you still have left .

on a brighter note , holidays are coming && i can't wait to let loose .

things have been hard recently . i really need to party .

tt's exactly hw big my smile would be when i finish my paper this coming wednesday .

fuckyeahskinnyboys . (okay , random)

may god bless you ((: xoxo .

fast forward !

2010-06-14T23:56:00.000-07:00

hello hello babies of the world !

apologies for the long absence .

i've been busy . awesome excuse , right ? hah .

anyways , for those of you who don't alr knw .

i'm nw schooling in ite clementi .

well , at least until we move to cck campus this july . hee ((:

though the sad thing is , boyf's is in a different class :(

bt nt for long . as soon as we move to cck campus ,

i'll be transfered to my boyf's class . hw awesome is tt :D

of course , i ain't looking forward to leaving my 7 babies in HA .

ohh , wait . 6 . minus me .

i ain't glad to leave you guys .

bt i'm glad to leave HA && join HB .

goodbye , HA .

anyhoooo , besides my 7crazy buddies .

i've met other people tt i've accepted into my life when i entered clementi .

zuri && zelly . vickie , vincent , abby , marcus , sk && wilson .

awesome people .

off-day .

2010-02-22T17:16:00.000-08:00

olaa , chickas .

wow . my blog is really dying .

i should say i'm sorry :(

thing is , i haven't had time even for myself .

anyhoooo , i'm bored waiting for bunny to wake up .

like honestly . hs 1hour power nap turned to a 12hr sleep .

though i understand how tired he is , it's still so sadded .

cause well , i can't sleep . && it's no fun staying up alone .

ohh well , i'll wake hm up in a minute xD

gawrsh , i miss my life .

it's like , been soooo long since i had time with tohguan bros .

bt we're having a pit on the 27th .

some sort of a farewell party for yan && mail .

gonna miss them manxx :(

godd ! i just remembered i haave to dye my hair black back !

BLEAHHHH !

iteiteite . dammit man .

it's times like this when you treasure poly life .

freedom of choice . nyehnyeh !

okay , gotta go wake bunny up .

miss you peepol truckloads .

bye !

lack of time .

2010-02-01T09:13:00.000-08:00

good evening , bloggy ((:

wait , no . it's 0046hrs . so good morning ;D hee !~

anyhooooooo ! i miss you , dear blog .

i know my blog is rotting && so is my facebook account .

but i really don't have the time to use my lappy much .

i'm working now . && when i'm not working , i'm out lepak-ing with tohguan bros .

which i rarely do now :(( i miss them so so much .

it's like with this work , i'm pushing aside half my life .

kills me but i have to support myself . bleah !

it's kind of a good thing to have some of my tohguan bros at work with me .

plusplus , boy freezer aka zai is coming back to work on friday ;D

weee !~

work haven't been tt bad .

the people there are nice . well , funny actually .

i like . it takes the burden off the idea of working . hehs .

&& school's starting soon .

no more work on weekdays for me . sadded .

i ❤ my boys .

&& i miss this boy truckloads .

La Freeze Hafiz .

not a little heartbreaker .

2010-01-23T10:32:00.000-08:00

greetings , lovers .

i'm home alone tonight && i'm missing my loverboy so so much .

god knows how much i love && need him .

like honestly , some of you may think of me as pathetic .

bt i honestly don't think i'd be able to live without babylove && his love in my life .

he's become so much a part of me tt i can literally forget about myself thinking about him .

i love you , dear . i swear .

so here's the deal .

back when i was a little girl , i used to hear people saying ,

"she's going to grow up to be a little heartbreaker ."

as much as i took it as a compliment , their predicament came true .

i did grow up to be a little heartbreaker .

until i met my one true love , Muhammad Rabbani Ben Bin Selamat .

hee !~

god knows how much i thank him for letting us cross paths .

baby , i love you so so so much .

i've never known a love this strong , this pure before i met you .

actually , no . i've never known a love besides yours .

i love you with all my heart , body && soul , hubby .

i swear .

don't ever leave me , dearest . you are my life now .

for the past 2years 6months 2weeks && 3days , you have been .

&& since 070707 , you have been the one i think about when i wake up from sleep .

you have been the one i think about before i do anything .

you have been the one i think of before i fall asleep .

you have been the one i dream of even on my worst nights .

you have always been the only one on my mind .

&& you forever will be . i swear love you , dear .

i just ❤ this picture .

i ❤ you .

my never-ending dreams .

2010-01-22T07:51:00.000-08:00

hello , babies of the world !

i'm just back from my daily dose of takraw-watching . heh .

adeq came down . much missed . nyehnyeh !

anyhoooo , recently someone asked me what i wanted to be when i grow up .

nt tt i don't want to say who tt someone is . bt i honestly forgot who it was .

HAHAH xP

y'know if you'd ask me tt when i was in nursery , i'd say i wanted to be a nurse .

when i was in K1 , i wanted to be a doctor .

when i was in K2 , i wanted to be a policeman .

mind you , policeman tau . nt policewoman . hahah .

when i was in primary 1 , i wanted to be an astronaut .

when i was in primary 2 , i wanted to be a fire fighter :O hah !

bt when i was in primary 3 until i cn remember , i wanted to be an air stewardess .

tt's hw rapidly my dreams change .

bt this air stewardess thing stucked on me for quite a long time .

bt it was something my mum hated .

wanna know why ?

you see , this is hw it went down .

me : maaaaaaa ! biler ct dahh besar , kn . ct nk jadi air stewardess . then i cn fly2 around the world . funnnn !~ *dazing off into my own world*

mama : tk bleh , tk bleh .

me : alaaaaaaah , pleeeeeeease ? ct goodgirl , promise .

mama : tkde2 . tk bleh .

me : whyyyy ? *sad puppy face*

mama : cause nnti biler kau naek aeroplane , then aeroplane crash . kau mati .

me : -_-"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH !

sometimes , i see why i get paranoid . i got it from her . nyehnyeh !

so nw i have no dreams , yet .

or rather , i haven't made up my mind on whether or nt i should go against her .

heheheh .

yummy eclair cream puffs .

2010-01-20T06:42:00.000-08:00

greetings , earthlings !

okay , i know my blog is getting really dusty .

it's rotting . nyehnyeh !

i really haven't had the time to blog tt much .

or rather i've just been too lazy . heheh .

here are some pics from countdown tt i just feel like uploading . hee !~

hahah . kim kene maki . nyeahahah ! dumb2 .

below is a pic of bunny's class pit ;

when we were riding in the am all the way to changi && back to ecp .

good times ~

anyhoooo , i've been crazy over eclair cream puffs these past few weeks .

eclair cream puffs give me spasms of happiness .

yummyyummy ! you should try it if you still haven't .

they're just delicious ! they're like slices of pure tastiness .

you don't know what you're missing out on .

awesome beard papa sweets xD hahah .

&& here is my partner-in-crime .

okay , this is a crappy post . i'm too lazy for a proper post . hahs .
will update soon . when i'm nt so lazy .
till then . take care , earthlings !
much love .

ℓιzα ғєитч ❤ вєи jєтяσ

my daily dose of baby bunny .

2010-01-06T07:16:00.000-08:00

isn't this just adorable ? ((:

i must have my daily dose of 24hrs with bunny ,

else i can't function .

my own personal drug . yummmaye !

mine && mine alone . mmm !~

baby bunny , will i ever be this girl one day ?

i want to be . i love you , dearest .

i swear i do .

P.S. when i text you , it means i miss you .

bt when i don't text you , it means i'm waiting for you to miss me .

mummy's little girl is back .

2010-01-05T08:12:00.000-08:00

i'm finally okay .
i've gained enough strength to be myself again .
i apologise to those i've more or less ignored in these past few days .
i just couldn't bring myself to pretend tt i'm fine with the situation stirring around me .
i'm sorry i pretended to be sick . i know i don't get sick tt easily .
i just couldn't face you guys . cause i know if i did , i'd breakdown knowing you guys would comfort me .
i didn't want you guys to worry so much . i'll be fine .
i'm really sorry . bt babies , i'm back ! ;D
stronger than i was before . cause nw , mama's blessings will always be with me .
so don't mess with me .

anyhoooo , i'm missing my ASAP family truckloads .
i honestly do . && much apologies to parne for nt being able to be there for you .
i'm so sorry .
&& i bought phone straps for you guys ! :D
much due to parne , abang , zak , trish . sorry !

&& farah , i'll fill you in soon . i promise .
i just couldn't trouble you more with my never-ending problems .
i love you , i do . tt's why i just can't cause you more stress .
bt nw tt i'm okay , i'll fill you in . (after some much needed sleep)
thanks for being there for me . i really appreciate it ((:

haiz . i miss the times when i have kate by my side all the time .
ohh , when i say kate i mean audrey oh .
you have always been there for me through ups && downs .
though we haven't met in a long time , i still haven't forgotten you .
i miss telling you everything in my life everyday in school .
i miss times when we ditched class to do crazy things in the toilet .
i miss impromptu visits to my house after school .
i miss the times when we'd be eating non-stop , even before && after recess .
i miss your comforting hugs when i breakdown in school .
i miss ncc camps with you . period .
you're basically the only reason why i miss queensway .
i love you loads , baby . && for the past year , i've been missing you terribly .

bt tt doesn't mean i've forgotten aishah && ary .
i miss you babies tooooooo :(

boingboingboing ! bunny's been calling me baby tiger .
small bt fierce . nyeahahah !
i'm just nt tt small though . hee !~
bunny's getting naughty nw . gotta go , bye !

remember the times .

2010-01-04T08:28:00.000-08:00

remember the worst thing you could get from the opposite sex was cookies ?
when papa was your hero && mama was your best friend .
when your worst enemies were your teachers .
when the only drug you knew was cough syrup && you thought it was icky .
when a girl who wore a short skirt didn't have to be a slut .
&& the only thing tt smoked were the tyres on your bike .
when scissors , paper , stone could solve any problem .
when the only thing tt hurt were bruises .
&& the only thing tt you had to worry about breaking was your favourite toy .

remember wanting to grow up so bad ? now i wish i hadn't .

FML .

2009-12-27T18:01:00.001-08:00

changes .

2009-12-27T08:32:00.000-08:00

from this sweet little innocent chubby thing ,

i grew up into this .

&& then if i were to become a matrep ...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH !

okay , don't mind me . i'm just bored .

congratulations !

2009-12-27T08:01:00.000-08:00

YAY SEZAIRI !

mama && i was practically screaming when the results was announced .

she was the one voting . lols .

awesome-ness . another great talent in the local music industry xD

likelikelike !

anyhoooo , nt everyone's happy with the results .

people are saying tt we're being sexist && racist .

only malay boys are winning ALL THE TIME .

it's nt because of their sex or race , biatches .

they have great talent , my dears .

both female && males are supporting em' .

there are malay , chinese && indian fans supporting em' .

moreover , who won ms singapore ? a chinese .

in the working world , who are they looking for most ?

fucking CHINESE .

you don't hear us complaining .

so you biatches just shut the fuck up with your racism fuck .

&& if you're soooo against malay boys winning S.I ,

shouldn't you have been voting for someone you biatches approve of ?

get a life man .

sezairi rocks my socks .

me likeeeeeee ! xD

SEZAIRI-fied !

forever in my life .

2009-12-26T09:56:00.000-08:00

Boy: I wanna tell you something . Just two words .

Girl: What is it ?

Boy: I love you .

Girl: Tt's three words .

Boy: No, because I && you are one .

❤❤❤

olaa , chickas !

okay , i know the pic above is random .

bt it's hilarious ! xD hahs !

anyhoooo , abg (nadzir) && parne came down to tohguan just nw .

i took retarded piccys with abg's ph , as always .

enjoy manxx ! look at em' when you miss me . HAHAH !

i'll only regret it when you post it on fb :P

zak bailed just nw cause she bumped into her dad on the way there .

sadded or whatttt . && i'm missing trisha loads :(

ohh wells , farah && i are going to fila imm on monday . hee !~

workworkwork !

damn , i already miss my babyboy .

he's sleeping && i have no one to talk to :(

love me , love me . say tt you love me .

_|_ me , _|_ me . ohh , hw you do me xD

kiss me , kiss me . say tt you miss me .

tell me what i wanna hear . tell me you love me .

i still remember when babyboy told me tt when he first met me ,

he didn't think tt he'd ever get to my heart .

bt what he didn't know was tt he had my breath in hs palms right from the start .

i love you . you're the only one for me .

my dream boy come alive .

forever in my life , you will be ;

the only difference is tt since 070707 , you're a reality ❤

i ❤ you .

you made your mark , like an arrow pierced right through my heart .

why , ohh , why ?

2009-12-25T11:31:00.000-08:00

; you're the only person who can accept && love my crazy shit .

; you put your life at risk just so i'd be safe .

; you cared for me like no one ever did .

; you're my prince charming .

; when you look at me , you see no one else .

; you pick me up everytime i fall .

; you helped me overcome my fears .

; you're willing to sacrifice time for my happiness .

; when you hold me , nothing else matters .

; when you tell me you love me , you actually mean it .

; everytime you see me , you smile like there's no tomorrow .

; you put me above everything else .

; you never fail to make me smile .

; when you sing , it's only for me .

; you believed in me even when no one else did .

; with you , i become a better person .

; to you , i'm a princess .

; in your eyes , i'm perfect .

; you love me with all your heart , body && soul .

; you are everything that i wished for .

&& at the same time , you are nothing like i've ever imagined .

; with you , i see a future which lasts forever .

baby bunny , i love you because ...

without realising , you became my life , my world , my everything .

&& with tt , i promise you love through life && death .

i swear i love you , baby bunny . i will always do .

a little wish this christmas .

2009-12-21T07:30:00.000-08:00

a little wish this christmas ;

for things to go back to hw they used to be .

back when eveything had no complications .

plain simple happiness .

things are getting so complicated now , i hate it .

i seriously hate it .

tell me , will everything ever go back to normal ?

i'm trippin' over myself , goin' nowhere .

come on , guys . i love you .

&& i'm missing y'all .

at least don't forget to remember me .

my blog's rotting , i know .

i really don't have the time to blog anymore .

my schedule's really packed right now .

on a brighter note , i'm meeting farah at 10 tmr :O

earlyyyyyyy nye .

well , early bird catches the worm .

it's a good thing she's hyper most of the time xD

appointmentsappointmentsappointments .

nyehnyeh ! i'm off to bed .

see you tmr , love ((:

awesome pit .

2009-12-17T07:25:00.000-08:00

baby bunny's class pit .

awesome .

friendly nice people ((:

i like , i like !

more pits , please ? xD

this ain't goodbye .

2009-12-10T09:37:00.000-08:00

Sometime later , time goes by fast .

Got my memories && they will last .

I try to keep it simple ‘cause I hate goodbyes .

&& I try to keep it simple by telling myself that …

I , I will remember you .

&& all of the things that we've gone through .

There is so much I can say but words get in the way .

So when we’re not together , I will remember you .

I will remember you .

We’re a picture in my mind .

When I want to find you , I just close my eyes .

You’ll never be that far from me , so don’t say goodbye .

‘Cause you’ll never be that far from me , I’m telling myself that …

I , I will remember you .

&& all of the things that we've gone through .

There is so much I can say but words get in the way .

So when we’re not together , I will remember you .

I will remember you .

You were there when I needed a friend .

Thank you , thank you .

I never told you how much that meant .

Gotta thank you , thank you .

I , I will remember you .

&& all of the things that we've gone through .

There is so much I can say but words get in the way .

So …

I , I will remember you .

&& all of the things that we've gone through .

There is so much I can say but words get in the way .

So when we’re not together , I will remember you .

When we’re not together …

I will remember you .

promises .

2009-12-09T09:52:00.000-08:00

an inevitable scary change .

nothing like i've ever imagined .

everything tt i'm running away from .

something i'm forced to go through .

don't laugh cause , love .

i'm an emotional wreck .

the thick wall i've built so strong so far ,

is finally breaking down .

torn apart .

2009-12-09T09:13:00.000-08:00

In a moment everything can change

Feel the wind on your shoulder

For a minute all the world can wait

Let go of your yesterday

Can you hear it calling?

Can you feel it in your soul?

Can you trust its longing and take control?

Fly

Open up the part of you that wants to hide away

You can shine

Forget about the reasons why you can't in life

And start to try

'Cause it's your time

Time to fly

All your worries, leave them somewhere else

Find a dream you can follow

Reach for something when there's nothing else

And the world's feeling hollow

Can you hear it calling?

Can you feel it in your soul?

Can you trust its longing and take control?

Fly

Open up the part of you that wants to hide away

You can shine

Forget about the reasons why you can't in life

And start to try

'Cause it's your time

Time to fly

And when you're down and feel alone,

Just want to run away

Trust yourself and don't give up

You know you better than anyone else

In a moment everything can change

Feel the wind on your shoulder

For a minute all the world can wait

Let go of yesterday

Fly

Open up the part of you that wants to hide away

You can shine

Forget about the reasons why you can't in life

And start to try

Fly

forget about the reasons why you can't in life

And start to try

'cause it's your time

time to fly

In a moment, everything can change

missing you .

2009-12-01T09:21:00.000-08:00

baby , i miss you . ever so much .

it's as if i haven't met you in eons .

when in reality , i meet you every single day of my life .

well , i suppose it's a hell of a good sign .

it's like i'm never going to get bored of you .

i seriously swear . i don't know why i just need to see you everyday .

why i need you by my side every second of everyday .

maybe it's because you make me feel complete .

this feeling is like no other .

i miss you , bunny . i miss you .

i miss the sight of your beautiful perfect self .

i miss the sound of your sweet soothing voice .

i miss the touch of your velvety naked skin .

i miss the taste if your delicious chocolate kisses .

&& i miss the smell of your elated happy juice .

i'm simply missing you . i need you now .

get your haircut done && over with .

come over . i miss you .

baby shaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyang bunny ! ❤

legal boyfriend .

2009-11-29T08:55:00.000-08:00

baby , my life was in heywire when you found me .

frolicking around looking for somewhere i belong .
lost in a sea of pretty lies ; tricked into believing tt my world was perfect .

tt's when you came && showed me the true meaning of life .

you showed me hw beautiful love really is .

then you gave me the best gift there ever was .

the kind every girl can only hope to dream about .

a promise of love through life && death .

happy 18th birthday , boyfriend .

i ❤ you .

an unspoken word .

2009-11-29T06:35:00.000-08:00

everything tt we've been through .

our bitter-sweet memories .

i miss all those times with you guys .

those carefree times . before any complications took it's place .

i really miss my NZT && the rest of my ASAP Family .

you guys ;

were there when no one else was .

have seen me at my worst bt are still able to accept me .

gave me comfort when i'm at my lowest .

gave me so much of yourselves when you knew so little of me .

became an important part of my life without me realising it .

until it came a point when all it took for you guys to break my heart was a simple word .

an unspoken word .

one like no other .

we've been through so much in so little time .

so don't disappear . i'm this close to quitting school .

please don't change a thing .

i love you guys .

homebound && i'm missing you .

2009-11-29T06:12:00.000-08:00

Before

After

okay , sorry . i'm just plain bored .

these are pics tt were taken at west coast park with sasha && faruq last saturday .

*before it started raining .

i know i'm random . i'm sorry .

i've just been rotting at home since morning . like fuck , right ? ugh !

Taylor Lautner .

2009-11-27T09:59:00.000-08:00

*SCREAMS !*

now i see why bunny says taylor lautner is hott .

he is mother fucking hott !

enjoy yourselves , ladies .

bt my hubby is still much much hotter !

i'll rape my baby schoolboy .

*winkwink ! *

anyhoooo , i can't wait to catch new moon on 3rd dec 09 .

though i've watched it like a million times on my lappy .

okay , i'm exaggerating . maybe it's a thousand .

hahahs . hari raye haji wasn't rockin' at all this year .

sadded . i slept the whole day at granny's house until like 7 ?

then i went to meet huney bunny bunny !

i won't elaborate more on this boringboring day .

i lovelovelove bunny !

if it's my soul you're worried about , take it .

i don't want it without you .

i ❤ you .

fullerton wedding .

2009-11-22T07:19:00.000-08:00

fullerton wedding .

sweet beautiful bride .

horny mat motor groom .

superbly delicous food .

awesome music .

naughty dancefloor .

tt pretty much sums up my night with my family .

afterwhich ; apple pie , new shoes , ben && jerry's icecream , starbucks java chip .

i'm fucking bloated right now . bleahhhh !

parne's 19th birthday .

2009-11-21T21:50:00.000-08:00

21st November 1990

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY , PARNE !

bump bump bump .

2009-11-21T06:43:00.000-08:00

hello hello , beautiful people of the century !
credits to farahleena for beautifying my blog for me .
thank you so so much :D
*hugs && kisses !* heehee !~
okay , well . i've been mia-ing from blogging for quite sometime .
do forgive me . i haven't been able to .
anyhoooo , went to west coast park today with hubby , faruq && sasha :D
makan . photography . snap . old maid . make up . flying fox . mac . tohguan .
tt sums up everything . a nice beautiful day (minus the rain)
the second time meeting her .
the first was a disaster as i wasn't able to talk much .
alah . you know , i know lah . yang tk tau , tkpe . hee !~
it's nice to finally talk to you ((: i shyyyy ! heehee !~
lets meet up soon ! :D must , okay ?
thanks for the make up ! :D i likeeee ! hee !~

though i've been better , i'm now alot better than i've been in the past week .
thanks to all who've cared && helped .
really , thank you . i love you guys . xoxox .

emotionally unstable .

2009-11-19T06:25:00.000-08:00

depression mode .

don't ask me what's wrong with me .

cause i seriously don't know .

it's all the little things that i've been keeping to myself ;

&& now , i can't seem to hold it in anymore .

everyday i force a smile for everyone .
but i can't take it anymore . i've bottled up way too much .

i'm blowing up .
i can no longer put on a mask .

a priceless mask that nobody ever saw through .

the very mask which is thinning , like my faith .

i feel like i'm lying to myself .
&& even worse , i'm lying to everyone else .
i can't do this anymore . i breaking down , baby .

i can't handle my life anymore .

i'm not as strong as i thought i was .

i'm breaking down .

baby , you've always been there for me .

will you be there to catch me when i fall this time ?

moodswings .

2009-11-18T07:40:00.000-08:00

MOODSWINGS . WHIPLASHES . TANTRUMS .

EXPECTATIONS . CAPABILITIES . DISAPPOINTMENTS .

SICK . TIRED . BORED .

BOTTLED UP . TOO MUCH . BLOWING UP .

FUCKED UP .

wonders .

2009-11-16T06:54:00.000-08:00

when i met you , it was as if my life turned into a roller coaster .

i've been running eversince . && now i can't find my way back .

then someone told me , maybe it's not about finding my way back .

it's about being right where i am .

it's funny how being in love makes you go all gooey inside .

the things you say to me , every word will be engraved in my little ❤ .

regardless sweet or not .

cause baby , with you , life has never been sweeter .

i ❤ you .

childhood flashbacks .

2009-11-10T07:17:00.000-08:00

childhood . must be the best thing in the world .

do you remember what it was like back in the days ?

you'd bounce around the neighbourhood without a care .

no worries , no nothing .

i totally forgot how it felt like being like that .

not until i played in the rain with babygirl && amalyna .

the joy , the happiness i saw in babygirl's eyes reminded me of the times i played in the rain with hafiz && shamil as a kid .

i miss them so so much :'(

i was so overwhelmed with joy tt i didn't want it to stop .

it felt like all my worries dissappeared just like tt .

it would be nice to feel tt way again .

it would be nice to feel again rather than being numb with worries every single second .

god knows hw bad i was freezing afterwards .

hubby , i wish you were there with us .

i'm sure you too could use a little feel-good "pain-killer" .

i'm missing you , boyfriend .

call me after takraw .

i lovE you . xoxox .

Bunny BonBon ! ♥

2009-11-06T07:07:00.000-08:00

Somewhat different , sometimes proud .

Somewhat strange , always adorable .

You're like nothing I've ever imagined .

But at the same time , you're like everything I've ever wished for .

Loverboy , you're the reason why my heart is singing ♥

i ♥ you .

My Honey Bunny Bunny .

2009-10-31T07:18:00.001-07:00

If I could reach up && hold a star for everytime you've made me smile ,

the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hands .

I love you , Honey Bunny Bunny ❤

spammers -_-"

2009-10-30T07:53:00.000-07:00

lovers of the new era !
another blog war , yet again -_-"
wonder if these people will ever get a life .
haiyoooo !~
hubby , bros && friends say tt i should turn my blog into a private one .
bleah . don't know if i should consider it .
nyehnyeh !

say what you want about me .
the rumours you heard about me may very well be true ;
but then again, it may be as fake as the bitch who told you .
so stop judging me when you don't even know me .

anyhoooo !
below are piccys of my babygirl && dear hubby ❤
bunny bunny bounche bounche bounche ! :D
i'm going to catch a movie with hubby now !
hee ! ❤
shaaaaaaayyyang hubby ! ❤
take care , lovers ! xoxox .
&& ohh ! HAPPY HALLOWEEN ! :D

Men's words are bullets , that their enemies take up && make use of against them .

bunny online .

2009-10-27T08:14:00.000-07:00

beautiful creatures of the world !
why , hello there ((:
firstly , i'd like to apologise for leaving my blog here to rot .
i really haven't had the time to update my lovely blog .
hee !
the only thing i do online nowadays is webcamming with bunny ;
now tt i've bought hm a new lappy ((: hee !
lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove bunny ! ❤
&& anyways , there haven't been much for me to update .
life have been the same , old , great life ;D
&& ohh , another addition to ASAP Family .
Parneuddin . HAHAH !
sound so weird . pelik tapi benar .
nyeahahah ! *no hander parne style!*
&& ohh ! kam's skipping two lectures on thursday to lepak with us for awhie before he heads to RP to catch the gamelan performance .
saaaayyang kam ! hee !~
i've been missing last semester's lepak times with ASAP Family .
times when it was just with my NZT ;
Nadzir , Zak , Trisha .
the ones who were there on my lowest moments .
don't change , don't forget , don't leave .
i swear i love you guys .
sadded . i really miss those times .
anyhooooooo !
There's this fat ugly girl in Nadzir's class .
step minah siaaaa !~
i fucking can't forget the time when haikel tagged along with bunny , aren && i .
fuhh ! hs smile so the miang .
plus kacao punye kacao ~
hahahs . cfm fatgirl steam sndiri .
huhuhuh !
he's actually nice , no worries ((:
boingboingboing !
okay , on a more serious note .
the slut is back .
&& i'm hating every second of it .
i don't hate . but when i do , there's no turning back .
you && your motherfucking son of a bitch boyfriend can go die && no one will care !
tt is , in case you haven't noticed , you stupid dumbfuck !
go drown yourselves in your blood pool of shitty secrets && lies .
no one needs you here , bitch !
putangneenamore ! *parne style*

you suck hardcore .

2009-10-09T00:07:00.000-07:00

get mad . && get over it .
speak when you're angry .
&& you'll make the best speech ;
which you'll regret later in life .

exactly why i'm keeping my mouth shut .
don't take my silence for granted , girl .
stop being a two-faced bastard .
i don't need your acting . nobody does .
i don't need you anymore ;
nobody ever did .

you've caused us enough trouble already .
we don't want or need you with us .
no wonder guys say they can never understand girls .
i'm a girl && i still don't get you .

what kind of girl are you ?
you're one fucked up pack of genes gone wrong .
exactly why your brain can never seem to function .
you see every little bad thing about other people .

i wonder hw you see yourself in the mirror .
bet all you ever did was compare yourself to me .
i'm nt being boastful .
bt i cn honestly say that i'm a much better person than you ever will be .

what more do you want from me ?
i've known you for quite some time .
i know all your crappy fucked-up behaiviour towards other people .
bt i never thought you'd do this to me .

you were my friend .
i've loved you .
you just can't see it .

so go on , be gone .
i'm over you .

Mungkin Nanti .

2009-10-05T23:00:00.000-07:00

Saatnya ku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya .
Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya .
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi .
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi .
Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi .
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali .
Rasa yang kutinggal mati .
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini .
Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpi2mu .
Membuka hatimu yang dulu cerita saat bersamaku .
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi .
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi .
Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi .
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali .
Rasa yang kutinggal mati .
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini .
Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi simpan untukmu sendiri .
Semua sesal yang kau cari semua rasa yang kau beri .

Okay , i know this is a really old song .
But i still just love it :P

babylove .

2009-10-03T09:49:00.000-07:00

You know this feeling won't go away .
This I promise you .
I give you my heart , body && soul .
&& with this vow , forever has now begun .

finally , asap family .

2009-09-30T08:17:00.000-07:00

greetings , my beautiful fellow earthlings !
woohaaheeeeee !~
after like eons of being away from each other ,
my ASAP family members finally have a meet-up .
wahh , fucking miss them .
&& ohh , ASAP family have a new member ! ((:
welcome , sky ! heehee !~
bt sadly , trish didn't make it .
she either fell asleep or was caught up with things .
gawrsh , i fucking miss her .
wonder what she's doing at night safari nw . nyehnyeh !
free tickets , okay ? :D

anyways , went off from there at like 7plusss with nadzir && hubby .
then headed to tohguan .
we played A to Z .
thing is , the game ain't fun .
bt the forfeits are . nyeahahah !
poor poor usop . a total of 8 forfeits .
or rather profits , the way he pronounced it :P
my forfeit was to lick hubby's ankle all the way up hs thigh .
steam eh , by ? :P heehee !~
wait awhile , kays ? :P *winkwink!*
love you manymany !
i wanna smell your happy juice !
awin , shh ! :P org tk tau , jgn blg :P
hahahahah !

friday jln rayeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !
with tohguan bros && girlfies :D
next sunday with gesps peeps .
miss them manymany !
shafie's out !!!!!!! ;D
haven't met hm in years .

boingboingboing !
okay2 , hubby's getting irritated .
get naked , love . wait , he alr is ...
mmm !

hari raye .

2009-09-27T07:20:00.000-07:00

sexy people of the century !
i'm back frm raye-ing with my family .
raye's nt so rocking this year .
it doesn't seem like it's going anywhere .
anyhoo , haven't celebrated raye with the other half of my family , my tohguan bros && my primary school mates .
have been raye-ing with mum , nenek && all .
what a DRAG ! especially when mum starts getting on my nerves .
lucky gt mama lala . else i think i'd go crazy .
bleahs . i need to smoke . be right back . heh !
back , baybeh !
gawrsh , i miss my sexy boyfie .
so so so much !
he's coming over tmr morning ((:
my cable ties are waiting for you , loverboy . *winkwink*
you knw , i knw ;) heehee !~
can't wait for tmr .
i wanna hear your voice . see your smile . feel your naked skin . taste your lips . smell your happy juice .
HAHAHAH !
merepek sia , liza . nyeahahah !
if you understand , shhh ! if you don't , good :P nyehnyeh !
hee !

do you knw what it feels like when you meet someone , have no idea who he is , have no clue on what his past or present is like , bt you just have to get to know hm ?
meeting you was like tt . days , weeks , months , nw years have pass by && i still can't pull myself away from you .
i don't know hw you do it , boy . i seriously don't .
bt don't stop what you're doing . i'm loving every second of it .

from the moment i met you , i just knew you'd be mine ; forever .
i don't ever want to lose this feeling . i don't wanna spend a moment apart .
this is a feeling tt i just can't fight .
you're the first && last thing on my mind .
be assured tt you'll always be .

boy . i followed my heart , followed the truth . it led me to you .
&& god knows hw much i thank hm for tt ((:
i love you , hubby .
i swear i do . i've loved you right from the start .
&& hubby , i forever will .

suckers of the new millenium .

2009-09-21T09:17:00.000-07:00

ay bay bay !

suckers of the new millenium .

i'm really busy , so listen up .

this is my blog .

my ever-so-beloved blog .

i'm the star here .

you don't like it , just get your ass the fuck out of here .

i don't need your critics && shit-talking here .

don't judge me when you don't know shit about me and/or my boyfriend .

it's not tt hard to interpret nw , is it ?

read my blog if you will .

love it ? come back again .

hate it ? leave && keep your crappy shit-talk in your head .

i don't give a damn what you think about me .

honestly , you think i care ?

i don't .

i write what i want , when i want .

this is my blog . nt yours .

i don't have to change my ways just so you don't have to keep reading tt

i fucked my boyfriend , countless of times .

bt get this clear . we broke our virginity to each other .

no one even touched us or saw us indecently before .

&& love , it shall remain tt way whether you like it or nt .

i ain't ashamed tt i'm no longer a virgin .

i'm proud tt i lost it to Ben .

the love of my life .

you don't know me , so ...

judge me && keep the verdict to yourself .

I may be very bitchy .

But you just can't change the fact that I will be who I am ,

no matter what happens .

Stay if you love me , leave if you hate me .

Either way , I'm not the one at loss .

read it && weap , love .

MY SEXY BABYLOVE !

2009-09-15T09:09:00.000-07:00

MY SEXY BABYLOVE !

LizaBen .
Est 07.07.07 .

Huney Bunny Bunny came over this morning .

gawrsh , i miss hm so so much lah seyy .

padehal hari2 pn jmpe . nyeahahah !

bt i've really missed mornings with you , sweetheart .

kay , trs terang . i miss you naked with me for hours on end ;D

hee !~

naughty ehk , Liza .

eish , mane ade . naughty ngn Hubby jek per .

okay , i'll stop talking to myself . hahs .

i'm looking forward to tmr morning , babylove .

i lovelovelove you , sexy boyfie !

always have && always will .

i love you . i forever will .

i swear .

loverboy .

2009-09-14T08:04:00.000-07:00

ay bay bay !
i don't even know where to start .
so much has happened && well , i haven't had the slightest time to blog about anything .
nyehnyeh ! below is a pic of Faruq , Aren , Hubby && I .
went to play pool the other day . heehee !~
fun people . i likeeee !~

anyways , yday Hubby && I went out with Yan , Nico , Fizah , Shidah , Chucks , Kai && some other people .
met them at geylang at like 6 . then went hunting for a place to buke .
step puase jek tau kiter nie .
nyeahahah !
after buke we headed to haji lane for sheesha .
went off at 11 then we had trouble finding a cab . was there till like midnight .
mcm sial ! tgu cab for over an hour ! nyehnyeh !
below are pics of yday ((:
psst ! mind my masai face .

bleahs . it's six days to raye && i've yet to get me my baju raye .
mama already bought hers .
it's orange . yucky . i hate orange leh .
i'm feeling blue this year :P
heehee !~
a nice change from wearing black every year ;D
huhuhuh !

&& a shoutout to Nadzir Mazlan , Zakiyyah Zainal && Trisha Pillai .
I MISS MY BELOVED ASAP FAMILY LEH ! :(

Hubby , come home soon . I miss you , loverboy ; truckloads :(

random .

2009-08-31T17:27:00.000-07:00

will camwhore today .

nyehnyeh !

updted , finally .

2009-08-31T09:14:00.000-07:00

ay bay bay !
i'm so sorry i haven't been updating my blog for quite sometime .
i've been too caught up with things happening around me .
&& yeah , i've been sleeping alot at home .
can't fill you out on everything .
but i can say i've had one of my best nights ever && i've had my soul being torn apart during this past few weeks ?
bleahs . i've lost track of time .
anyways , here are pics of my much missed Smoking HOTT Family .
going to meet up with zak && trisha on friday .
nadzir's busy . sadded :'(
miss hm sooo much sia . miss you guys so so much ! :(

our everyday life .

check boncet !

babygirl .

camwhoring in the handicapped toilet .

ASAP Family ((:

loved ones .

zak muker minahrep !

taik otw !

gayboys .

my favourite pic ! :D

huhuhuh !

i miss our crazy lepak-ing times alotalot , mannnn !

anyways , went out with Hubby , Wak , Tuty , Faruq , Kam , Nana , Huzai , Farah && her cousin on friday night .

buke "puase" at Hajah Esah Cafe near Haji Lane then went off to have sheesha where we met ZAK ! :D hee !

rindu dier manymany !

then went to look for Pool Fusion 2 around the National Library bt full house when we later found it :(

went off to Marina , camwhored then headed home .

(piccys are with Huzai , sorry !)

anyways , planned to visit QWSS for Teachers' Day just nw bt i overslept with Hubby . nyehnyeh !

bought dinner with Atok in the afternn . good girl ! :D hee !

i miss Hafiz , Shamil && Makcik alot .

go Geylang buke tgr soon ? :D

hee !

okay , i know i'm missing alot of people right now .

bt tt's just how i feel .

bleahs . can't wait for friday .

i wanna fill you guys on many more things .

bt i can't the details are kind of private as it doesn't involve only me .

all i cn say is tt there have been alot of conflicts recently .

hopefully this period of time will end soon .

it's causing me && the people i love waaaay too much stress .

bleahs , i wanna go catch a movie .

bye , lovers ! ❤

see you tmr morning , Hubby !

love you manymany ! ❤

❤My Smoking HOTT Family ❤

2009-08-17T08:36:00.000-07:00

i never thought this day would come .

i never thought i'd ever have to say this .

in fact , i've never even thought about this before until today .

maybe it's just me being overly emotional .

or maybe i've given you guys so much of me tt the thought of parting with you guys seems unbearable .

okay , i'm crying . i know , i know .

i'm way too sensitive .

why do we have to start bonding this late in the semester ?

why do i start loving you guys when we're going to part .

RP is known for it's bond-breaking .

i don't ever want to break with you guys .

you guys honestly mean alot to me .

Trish , you're like a girl version of one of my brothers .

the one i can count on to cheer me up when i'm down .

Zak , you're the girlfriend i've never had .

the first girl i took such little time to click with .

(not including trish , tt is :P)

Nadzir , you're like my big brother .

the way we fight , the way you take care of me sometimes is so sibling-ish .

the little things we do , the little things we share means alot to me .

i've given you guys so much of me tt parting with you guys tomorrow feels like i'm tearing myself apart .

guys , promise me we won't drift apart .

promise me we'd still spend time together .

promise me our 2nd breaks are still reserved for each other .

i'm truly afraid of what tomorrow may have in stored for us .

i don't want today to ever end .

i love you , NZT . honestly , i do . truckloads .

if i could have one wish , this would never end .

it would just begin .

i love you guys . no joke .

national day .

2009-08-13T08:02:00.000-07:00

i know , i know . my blog's clogging up dirt :(
i've been too busy to update my dear blog .
sadded , i know . hahs .
anyways , below are pics we took on national day .
i lovelovelove my beautiful bros :D

tt's just it for nw . will update soon .

hopefully , if i have the time :D

love you people !

Happy 25th Month Anniversary , Hubby ❤

2009-08-07T06:41:00.000-07:00

ay bay bay !
missed me ? hahahs .
i've been spreading myself too thin lately .
i'm soooo fucking tired . bleahs .
just gt back from bugis .
went to Sim Lim Square with Hubby Dearest ❤ , Mail , Wak , Yan && Icaa ((:
hubby gt me a pair of PINK Philips earpiece && a pair of silver Panasonic headphone . hees !
he also gt hmself a pair of blue Sony earpiece .
Baby likeeee . hehs .
thanks , hubby ❤
i lovelovelove you ! ❤
great day tday :D
shopping per , geng ? hahs !
❤ korg lah !

anyways , a few days back the guys in my class were girly-fied . HAHAH !
below's a picture of Justin && i .
he's prettier than me ! OMG lah .
hahahs . fucking jealous sia :P
i can't upload Nadzir's beautiful pic with me .
promised hm i won't ((:
see , Nadzir .. i'm sooooooo nice :D hee !

you know yesterday , Itek texted me to cabot .

asked me to meet hm at 2 . said he'd text me when he left hs hse .

blahblahblah . tk picet2 pn .

i ended up lepak-ing in class till 4 with Trish && Nadzir -_-"

after which , i lepak-ed with Yasser , Jan , Itek , Ban && Rishi till 6 .

poor Yasser just recovered from fever . poor poor boy .

anyways , went to meet my Huney Bunny Bunny after tt :D

then my tohguan bros during takraw .

i miss all you people . i ❤ you .

ohh yea , met Hubby's classmates on wednesday .

funny bunch of people .

ain't no way anyone can be serious or sad around them . hahs !

gerekzzz :D

i wanna go watch a movie now . ❤ you people manymany !

&& Hubby , Happy 25th Month Anniversary ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

i lovelovelove you ! i swear ❤❤❤

mwahhs ! ❤

1st August 2009 .

2009-08-01T08:26:00.000-07:00

baybeh baybeh !
i'm back from town .
with hubby , yan , kai , dan && icaa .
miss them so so much .
the rest were busy . sadded .
anyways , i played pool for the first time . wooo !
&& i'm good :D
puji diri ehk . nyeahahah !
here are the pics :D

boncet nyeeee aku nie .
first time , beb .

i look like a minah , i know .

senyum tk menjadi . hahs !

java chip . yumyum !

ahhh ! how i miss being out && about with my tohguan bros && hubby .

still hubby says him && i can't be seen at esp together . nnti meletop .

sadded , kn ?

my favourite hangout . haiz .

boingboingboing !

i'm out of things to talk about . bleah .

i wanna play more pool . i wanna play cards .

i miss my smoking hott family ; nadzir , zak , trisha ❤

i miss my tohguan bros ; huzai , faruq , kai , dan , yan , chucks , mail , ucop , obat , kam , aren , bobby , wak , din , shafiq ❤

i miss yasser && friends ; yasser , jan , itek , rishi , lala , ikin , aini , ban , etc ❤

i miss my bitches ; audrey && aishah ❤

fuck . i love you people .

mwahhs ! ❤

american pie .

2009-07-29T06:13:00.000-07:00

ay bay bay !

i know i've been neglecting my blog yet again .
no need to keep reminding me on msn , i know .
there just haven't been much for me to update lately .
have just been lepak-ing alot .

anyways , met hubby yesterday && today ❤
met my much missed tohguan bros too :D
haven't seen them for like weeks . yeah , WEEKS !
ugh . busybusybusy .
stupid poly life . i need a holiday ; badly .
heheheheheheh ! hari raye coming soon ! :D
moneymoneymoney ! *winkwink* hee !

&& ohh ! here are the pics for our enterprise formal lesson :D:D

my smoking hott family .

trisha baby .

the ultimate slacking team .

all my ladies .

all my boys .

this pic is just so CUTE !

i just lost my skirt !

my babygirls .

When Selenger meets Beylo .

so yeah , baby , tt's it . you can find all the other pics in facebook .

there's too many . hehs .

camwhores .

&& ohh ! you know what happened in class just now ?!

zak && i were too engrossed watching american pie to even notice aslam && sharifah practically screaming our names :O

turns out , the faci saw us being too absorbed in the sex scene !

like WTF , kn ? malu sia !

hahahs . naseb she good mood today . hehs !

anyways , i wanna go watch a movie .

bye , lovers . mwahhs !

proper update :D

2009-07-26T06:38:00.001-07:00

okays , people . i know i haven't been updating for a really really long time .
anyways , nothing much have been going on .
i've just been spending alot of time with my classmates .
mainly nadzir , zak && trisha .
&& also yasser && friends .
have been playing dare or double dare alot lately .
hmm , went to NDP preview .
bumped into plenty of queenswayans , abidin , abang anddd yasser && friends .
lepaked with yasser && friends for awhile before heading off .
reached hme at midnight . a minute past midnight && mum would kill me .
anyways , the only new pics i have is with my hott bestie , fazul . here they are :D

my dear hott bestie .

those bite marks are still very much visible .

resting . hahah .

smokers have more fun .

TMR I'VE TO BE IN FORMAL WEAR !
FIRST && LAST WARNING ; DON'T LAUGH !

okays , i kind of need to get the hang of blogging again . MIA for so long , nw my blog update like soooo boring . hahs !

miss you people . mwahhs ! love you .

STOMP-ED !

2009-07-26T06:13:00.000-07:00

okays , people !
i'm back ! ANDDDD !
i was STOMP-ED !
hahah ! i'm serious .
i was wearing my miniskirt && tube top , i think .
it was taken on 2nd May .
hubby && i were accompanying obat to anugerah auditions .
we ton at obat's place the day before sumore .
i woke up late , hence nt being able to wash my hair in the morning .
which explains my ugly hair in those piccys .
bleah ! tt's the only thing i find embarassing about those pics .
my unwashed hair . HAHAHS !

okay , welcome spammers .
i know you'll be here sooner or later .

schoolwork .

2009-07-19T09:37:00.000-07:00

Meet PC hottstuff :D

hahahs ! okay , tt's random .

anyways , for thosee of you who don't know .

PC is the "HOTTEST" girl you see there .

hahahs . i know , i know . i'm evilllllll .

anyways , i'm just back from completing our communications proposal .

weee ! we've only the powerpoint presentation to complete .

heehee !

met natasha at amk mrt . walked to the library .

gt lost while walking in the hott sun . hahs .

blahblahblah .

went to long john's with ashraf , justin , natasha && aslam for dinner .

stuffed ourselves like there's no tmr .

completed our work , && headed hme :D

&& ohh , justin ! remind me tt i owe u ciggys . hehs .

so tt's just it . love you , babies .

UPDATED !

2009-07-18T09:35:00.001-07:00

ay bay bay !

missed me ?

i haven't been updating much now , have i ?

so sorry , loves .

i've been really busy with school && life , y'know ?

anyways , watched h.potter with La Freeze Luis-Fernando .

&& for the first time , i didn't like h.potter when i've always LOVED h.potter .

the movie , i mean . not daniel radcliffe .

the movie doesn't only have a terribly sudden ending ,

it's fucking incomplete ! it leaves you hanging . && a number of scenes were cut off . ugh !

&& ohh ! draco malfoy is hotthotthott !

okay , a brief overview of the past few days .

mmm , went to lepak with kiti , aisyah && weewee on wednesday after school till like 8plus before we headed home .

awesome people . like really .

P/S lets see how long we can go on talking about hairs . HAHAH !

on thursday after an activity in school , i lepak-ed with yasser && friends for awhile .

friendly people :)

headed home at 9.30 with yasser . boingboingboing !

met huney bunny bunny at tohguan on friday .

met wak . haven't seen hm in quite some time .

well , tt's basically it . i've just been spending alot of my time outside .

so yeahhhh .

❤ I MISSMISSMISS MY HOTT BOYF ! ❤
manymanymany !

&& OHH !

meet my beautiful angel && crazy devil .

nyeahahah !

CUTE , right ? :D hee !

as much as i ~~hate~~ to admit this , i'll miss W45B when we've to change class in weeks to come .

saddening :(

anyways , gotta crash now .

have to meet up with my communications group to complete our proposal tmr .

bleahs ! sweet dreams , babies .

thnks fr th mmrs ☆.

2009-07-18T09:14:00.000-07:00

i'm gonna make you bend && break (It sends you to me without wait)
say a prayer but let the good times roll .
in case God doesn't show (Let the good times roll , let the good times roll)
&& i want these words to make things right .
but it's the wrongs that make the words come to life .
"who does he think he is ?"
if that's the worst you got , better put your fingers back to the keys .

one night && one more time .
thanks for the memories ; even though they weren't so great .
"he tastes like you only sweeter"
one night , yeah , && one more time .
thanks for the memories , thanks for the memories .
"he , he tastes like you only sweeter"

been looking forward to the future but my eyesight is going bad .
&& this crystal ball ; it's always cloudy except for
when you look into the past (look into the past)
one night stand (one night stand off)

one night && one more time .

thanks for the memories ; even though they weren't so great .
"he tastes like you only sweeter"
one night , yeah , && one more time .
thanks for the memories , thanks for the memories .
"he , he tastes like you only sweeter"

they say i only think in the form of crunching numbers .
in hotel rooms collecting page six lovers .
get me out of my mind && get you out of those clothes .
i'm a liner away from getting you into the mood , whoa !

one night && one more time .
thanks for the memories ; even though they weren't so great .
"he tastes like you only sweeter"
one night , yeah , && one more time .
thanks for the memories , thanks for the memories .
"he , he tastes like you only sweeter"

one night && one more time (one more night , one more time)
thanks for the memories ; even though they weren't so great .
"he tastes like you only sweeter"
one night , yeah , && one more time .
(one more night , one more time)
thanks for the memories , thanks for the memories .
"he, he tastes like you only sweeter"

PANTAT .

2009-07-09T10:27:00.000-07:00

IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE ME AT MY WORST , THEN YOU CAN BE SURE AS HELL YOU DON'T DESERVE ME AT MY BEST .

everytime i breathe , i take you in ❤

2009-07-09T08:21:00.001-07:00

don't pretend you're sorry , i know you're not .
you know you got the power ; to make me weak inside .
boy , you leave me breathless .
but it's okay 'cause you are my survival .
now hear me say ; i can't imagine life without your love .
&& even forever don't seem like long enough .
'cause everytime i breathe , i take you in .
&& my heart beats again . boy , i can't help it .
you keep me drowning in your love .
everytime i try to rise above , i'm swept away by love .
boy , i can't help it . you keep me drowning in your love .
maybe i'm a drifter , maybe not .
'cause i've known the safety of floating freely in your arms .
i don't need another lifeline , it's not for me .
'cause only you can save me . ohh ! can't you see i can't imagine life without your love .
&& even forever don't seem like long enough .
'cause everytime i breathe , i take you in .
&& my heart beats again . boy , i can't help it .
you keep me drowning in your love .
everytime i try to rise above , i'm swept away by love .
boy , i can't help it . you keep me drowning in your love .
go on && pull me under . cover me with dreams , yeah !
love me mouth to mouth now . you know i can't resist .
'cause you're the air tt i breathe .
'cause everytime i breathe , i take you in .
&& my heart beats again . boy , i can't help it .
you keep me drowning in your love .
everytime i try to rise above , i'm swept away by love .
&& boy , i can't help it . you keep me drowning in your love .
boy i can't help it . keep me drowning in your love .
i keep drowning in your love . boy , i can't help it .
can't help it no , no .
'cause everytime i breathe , i take you in .
&& my heart beats again . boy , i can't help it .
you keep me drowning in your love .
everytime i try to rise above , i'm swept away by love .
boy , i can't help it . you keep me drowning in your love .

random , baby .

2009-07-09T07:18:00.000-07:00

heyheyhey !
i realised i haven't been updating my blog for the past couple of days .
i've been a little busy lately . with life .
bt it's mostly because i don't have new pics :P hahs !

anyways , i left school halfway tday ; again -_-"
met my huney bunny bunny ! :D
hee ! jalan2 at queensway sc . i'm getting bored of tt place .
bleahs . padehal tahun nie baru gie sane due kali . hahs !
i get bored too easily lah :S

&& ohh , you know i've lots of body piercings but like the holes dahh too small .
soooo , hubby pierced my nose again just nw :D
the third time this year -_-" tangan gatal lah . keep taking it out then pkai blk .
hahahs . sorry i'm talking alot of malay tday .
my mind's functioning in malay tday . this rarely happens . hee !

hubby && i lepaked at faruq's house just now .
it's empty ! hs family's overseas .
P/S faruq ! you've a beautiful home ! :D
wish my parents'd go overseas sometime soon .
i need tt alone time ... with hubby , of course ;D heheheheh !
alah , aku bbl merepek ar niari . the most not nice post ever .
siap dgn broken english sumore .
nyehnyeh ! love you ppl ! ❤

my little doll house .

2009-07-07T08:12:00.000-07:00

HE MADE ME A LITTLE DOLL HOUSE ! :D ❤

something i've secretly been waiting for a guy to make me for soooo long .

&& hubby , i never thought it'd come from you ❤ hee !

i lovelovelove you ! ❤

a cute little hme for danish && brobeetot ! ❤ hee !

thank you , dear . i just love it .

saaaaaaayyyang hubby manymanymany ! ❤

&& once again , happy 2year anniversary , dearest ❤

2years && still counting .

2009-07-06T08:44:00.000-07:00

❤ HAPPY 2YEARS ANNIVERSARY , HUBBY ! ❤

this is the first ever picture we took .

hubby , time flies so fast when i'm with you .

babylove , you may not be the first guy tt i fell in love with .

but you can be sure as hell , you'll be my last .

it's not easy to be with someone like me .

thank you for believing in me .

since 070707 , you've never given up on me .

keep believing in me , hubby .

keep loving me .

cause with you in my life , i find happiness .

with you in my life , there's nothing else i'll ever need .

you complete me , babylove ❤

with sweet love && devotion , you gently touched my emotions .

hubby , you're the best i've ever had .

the best there ever will be .

triplezeroseven ; 7th July 2007 ; 070707 .

lets make this last , huney .

i love you .

with all my heart , i swear i do .

&& until the end of time , i will always do .

i love you , dearest ❤

with all my love ,
ℓιzα sÞαđє™ ♠

goin' crazy .

2009-07-05T09:31:00.000-07:00

though we're far apart , you're always in my heart ❤ .
i don't know how you do it , boy .
you spin my world around just by walking into my sight .
it's been years since i've known you . you're not a new addition in my life .
but still , you never fail to take my breath away everytime i see you .
you never fail to make me weak in the knees .
you make me lose all control . you make me want to forget the entire world .
you know exactly where && how to touch me , to carress me .
your touch , your hugs , your kisses , your breath on my neck ;
i'll remember for the rest of my life ❤ .
my feelings , i've hidden from you . my dreams , i can never seem to find .
i'm falling behind , i can't find my place .
i'm losing my faith && boy , i've fallen from grace .
you make me forget all the consequences when i'm around you .
grabbed you , grind you , liked you , tried you .
moved so fast , boy , now i can't find you .
i'd give my all to have just one more night with you .
i'd risk my life to feel your body next to mine once again .
you know exactly how to drive me crazy , unknowingly .
boy , you got me weak . never in my life have i been so weak .
how do you do it , boy ?
you're suffocating me . && i'm loving every second of it .

if i had one wish , we would be best friends .
love would never end , it would just begin .
stay beautiful , boy ❤ .
i love you . more than you'll ever know .
be my shining ☆ , ❤ .

boy , you were a perfect stranger .
thank you for loving me , ☆ .
i miss you ; terribly .

ndp rehearsal .

2009-07-04T09:45:00.000-07:00

credits to ucop .

ohh , baby !
i'm back after a night out with my beloved bros && my sexy boyf :D
had an amazing time with them just now .
but then again , i always do .
hubby , kam , huzai , mail , obat , din , ucop && kai fetched me at commonwealth .
then we were off to bugis to meet yan && fiq .
had dinner . && made our way to esplanade on foot .
luckily i changed my mind about wearing my stilettos just now .
would've been walking barefoot if i didn't . hahs !
watched the fireworks . b-e-a-utiful ! :D
but honestly , the fireworks during countdown was much more spectacular .
had starbucks java chip . i prefer the one faruq made for hubby && i though .
maybe because he made it with tender loving care ♥ hees !
anyways , we continued to lepak at esplanade .
a typical saturday night , but it never fails to make me happy :D

P/S we didn't take much pictures tday . lazy .
the little tt we have is with kam . can't upload them .
sorry .

boingboingboing !
i'm gaining weight already ! :D
huney bunny bunny's extremely happy about it .
i'm back up to 47kg . now i feel fat . hahs !

anyways , i just gt hme && the house's empty .
mum's out with fat dad . transformers ; midnight show .
mak aku dahh maju ar :P hahah .
mummmyyyyyyy ! i'm hungry ! :(
come home soon ! it's like 1.15am now .
guess it'll be over in about 1hour .
okay2 , i should go && bathe now .
smelly , baby !

heart , body && soul .

2009-07-02T09:05:00.000-07:00

my baby cuzzie .

ay bay bay !
i'm back from queensway sc .
baby cuzzie wanted a shirt .
saw it , wanted it , threw a tantrum . got it .
hahs ! a shirt he designed for the upcoming AYG closing performance .
live on teevee , yaw !
7th July 2009 . hee !
sorry , love . i won't be home then .
but i will most definitely catch the encore show :D
promise . hee !

my hott boyfie .

7th July 2009 ; 2year anniversary ♥♥♥
baby lovelovelove hubby !
more than anything in this world , babylove ♥
hee ! you're the best there ever was ,
the best there is , the best there ever will be .
saaaaaaayyang huney bunny bunnykush ! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

FUCK YOU !

anyways , a shoutout to all perverted guys out there .
dudes , i don't want to have sex with any of you .
i only have sex with my dearest boyfie , Muhammad Rabbani Ben Bin Selamat .
my heart , body && soul belongs to hm .
so stop fantasizing dirty things about me .
i know i'm hott but it ain't gonna happen ; nt now , nt ever .

untitled .

2009-07-02T08:05:00.000-07:00

i open my eyes ,

i try to see but i'm blinded by the white light .

i can't remember how , i can't remember why

i'm lying here tonight .

&& i can't stand the pain . && i can't make it go away .

no , i can't stand the pain .

how could this happen to me ?

i made my mistakes . i've got nowhere to run .

the night goes on .. as i'm fading away .

i'm sick of this life . i just wanna scream .

how could this happen to me ?

everybody's screaming .

i try to make a sound but no one hears me .

i'm slipping off the edge , i'm hanging by a thread .

i wanna start this over again .

so i try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered .

&& i can't expain what happened .

&& i can't erase the things tt i've done , no , i can't .

how could this happen to me ?
i made my mistakes . i've got nowhere to run .
the night goes on .. as i'm fading away .
i'm sick of this life . i just wanna scream .

how could this happen to me ?

i made my mistakes . i've got nowhere to run .

the night goes on .. as i'm fading away .

i'm sick of this life . i just wanna scream .

how could this happen to me ?

i made my mistakes . i've got nowhere to run .
the night goes on .. as i'm fading away .
i'm sick of this life . i just wanna scream .
how could this happen to me ?

my last day of holidays .

2009-07-01T06:30:00.000-07:00

baybeh , baybeh !
i'm back ! :D gawrsh , i'm so mf-ing tired .
went riding with my beloved bros && hott boyfie . hee !
lepak-ed at idk which park in the hot sun .
became spider monkeys . oooh ! i'm becoming black ! :O
speaking of black , all of us wore black ; unplanned .
nie baru jiwe ! :D hee !
hahs ! bumped into wan trex , qamarul && asri on our way back to tohguan .
here are the pics :D (mind my masai face :P)
P/S qamarul's KR looks nice :D

spider monkey !

obat's afraid of heights . hahs !

what was i doing ?
my pretty boy .

tohguan boys .

kam's sunbathing .

♥ hott boyfie && secret lover ♥

he's thinking , "i know i'm hott" . hahs !

i lovelovelove you ! ♥

secret lover ! :D

monyet2 zaman skrng .

yes , i love them ♥

look at mail ! :D

hott boyfie with hott && cute bros .

a fun && crazy day .

will always be happy around them . hee !

anyways , to all the ppl we kacao-ed ;

we're sorry ... not !
hahs ! perangai sak , liza .

nyehnyeh !

&& ohh ! i miss this baby ;

fizah lullaby ♥

misses .

2009-06-30T09:25:00.001-07:00

i missmissmiss my beloved bros :(

i miss mail , huzai , faruq , kam , ucop , chucks , yan , obat , aren , kai , dan ...

i miss all of them , i just miss them so much .

huney bunny bunny !

2009-06-29T21:03:00.000-07:00

Give me a "B" ! *clapclap*

Give me an "E" ! *clapclap*

Give me a "Y" ! *clapclap*

L .......!

O........!

BEYLO !

*clapclapclapclap !*

hee ! gawrsh , i miss my beylo boyfie :(

he's on hs way here ! weee !

i lovelove hm ! ♥

he's the best i've ever had ♥

i love you , sexy .

anyways , we're going to fetch faruq frm work in the evening .

he misses us . hee !

i wan , i wan , i wan go smoke ! nyehnyeh !

thank you , baby .

2009-06-29T12:37:00.000-07:00

Credits to Aishah Almi for making my blog beautiful ! :D

gue sayang banget sama lu ! ♥♥♥

♥ xoxox ,

ℓιzα sÞαđє™ ♠

CANCELLED !

2009-06-28T12:38:00.000-07:00

ay bay bay !
i'm home aft a long day at east coast && a long night at tohguan , as usual ((:
i'm down to my last ounces of enegry . hahs !
will edit this later tonight :D

; 29th June 2009 , 0347hrs .

i'm back , baby !
anyways , about yday .
woke up at 8am aft 4hrs of sleep just so tt aishah && i won't be late for the NCC gathering thingy ....
only to find out it has been canceled after we reached ECP .
like what the fuck , right ?
i'm so sorry for troubling u , hubby :(
&& if tt wasn't enough , kbox session with the boys tt night gt cancelled too .
hmph ! sadded .
bt on the plus side , my babyboy came back last night :D
saaaaaaayyang danish ! ♥

here are the piccys :D

i smell nice !

monyet2 zaman skrng .

hold on , babylove ♥

wak wak tgh mrh . hahahs !

my favourite people ♥

why's everyone saying tt i'm getting skinnier ?

knock yourself silly .

tanglin babies .

beautiful reflection .

boredom kills .

the open sea .

alamak , aishah dlm tent ! SHHH !

kissy kissy !

my loved ones ♥

okay , tt's pretty much it . hahs .

anyways , it seems to me like everyone's been saying tt i'm getting skinnier .

hubby , mail , aishah , aryani , hafiz , kak yani , momma , mumy mertue , daddy mertue , aren , ain , kai , nelson , huzai , faruq , ucop , kam , etc , etc .

okay , i checked . i'm 43kg nw :S gawrsh .

&& hubby's nt at all happy about this .

he wants me faaaaaaat ! hahs !

bt just to let you guys know , i'm eating more than usual nw .

&& tt i'm nt exercising or doing anything to make myself lose weight .

i'm perfectly fine :D

don't worry , loves ♥

tribute to Michael Jackson .

2009-06-26T10:06:00.000-07:00

Michael Jackson ; 1958 to 2009 .

On the Sad morning of 25th June 2009 Michael Jackson was discovered collapsed at his rental home in Los Angeles . 911 emergency services responded promptly at 12:21 pm Pacific time arriving at 12:30 pm to find Michael unconscious and not breathing . He was rushed to the UCLA Medical Center and after a brief slip into a coma Michael was pronounced dead at 2:26pm ; the cause reported as cardiac arrest . The Los Angeles Police Department has opened an investigation and an autopsy is scheduled for Friday , 26th June 2009 .

Michael lived a very colourful life and during a short 50 years he made an indelible mark on the planet Earth . Whether or not you are a fan there is nobody who can deny his impact and the memory of him which will persist in all of us indefinitely . Spread the word of Michael Jackson's legacy and make sure everyone will always remember .